AAAARGGGHH

i think my head might explode with all the things buzzing around in it. i have actually considered self-sedation. but buying valium online is fiendishly expensive.

our short film shoots this weekend, which is seeming more and more ludicrous as travel/costume/prop expenses mount and scheduling is a bitch. it is essentially the only thing i think about, which is not helping the 5000 word gender and hollywood essay i've got to do get written.

to avoid fainting keep repeating "it's only a movie..."

this is all fun. or something. a learning curb, certainly...?

ARGH!